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Posted 2:56 PM by Libby

home now frm school... i've got senioritis bad hah. In spanish, i didn't even do the spanish oral final thing... my teacher is still going to pass me which is dope of her. I got in trouble in gov. for talkin on the phone among other things hah..o well... so now I got a reservation at the Lighthouse for 20. Formal better be hella fun or it's just a bust.

At lunch i went to RHP to chill for lunch. I saw joanne again, and went to chill w/ colin and daniel... man time has went by so fast...sucks in some aspects but I wish time would just stop right now. Gosh I was a freaking wildchild in middle school... how the heck did i get out of that phase??? I duno how I did it....i ate an interesting pizza hah... their school is small but it's calming... they have some wack people there hah... their lunch is one hour which I wish pen would have the same...

I came back to yearbook for 6th period. I'm gonna be dedicating some time to yearbook tomorrow nite yikes hah... I should do myspanish hw . gots lots to make the teacher happy so she won't think i'm totally slacking.

My mum is cool hah. I was just going to pay for formal w/ my own money because I dislike bugging my parents for money bcuz they're always there ya kno... So i was just talking to her on the phone about it.. and she's so insistant about paying the money up for me... I dislike being an obligation heh...but yeah. yay, more of my own money...not that I'm going to go all out broke and all. My credit card is probably gonna be crzy next month, but it's all good.

I feel at peace For the Moment. Knowing I've got my girls, and my other friends there for me is really dope . It makes me feel special...as gay as that sounds... I don't need a boyfriend to make my day, just knowing I've got some good friends is good enough for me... just trying to be more humble now and stuff. i hope i stay in this mood and mindset for a bit. I'll let things come to me, and not be so passionate on the unnecessary

Posted 7:34 PM by Libby

work was slow... then at the end it became crzy busy... during this time, nancy and daniel came to visit. they met each other also hah... nancy got such a good deal on flowers ... her's with a free guy thing. Mo and tiff gave me a ride home which was cool , but which i forgotmy key...dumb me :P

Posted 6:51 PM by Libby

home now~ I was out at gogo w/ daniel and we talked for a while... dude, i got so sad when he was talking about his stuff... it's so much like the good times i wished for in the past. i was about to tear up gese o wheeze... now there's like this circle of people i know that go through the same stuff... daniel, jenny, her friend christy, me of course.... gosh this stuff sucks a loT!

Earlier jenn, wayne, daniel and I picked out flowers... Ours is baby red roses~ yay... i think jenn's is pink flowers...

I met daniel's friend jimmy... he and I have the same shoes heh.. nice guy also,but daniel's so like iono diff. I like talking to him, such a nice guy hha... could i ever not say he's nice? formal better be fun...i think it will be. :)

okay gonna take a nap. i've got eye bags and i'm a bit tired anyways. ttfn

Posted 3:19 AM by Libby

okay just home now hah. daniel came to get me @ 11ish.. I met new friends heh...we just chilled at starbucks till now~ wow i learned so much stuff... it's a shock but it's cool i guess.

i think what i used to think is down the drain... too much baggage and that's like sucky doodle... but some people can't move on... whatevers now... i'm a lil down about it but what can i do ya kno? i used to sorta kinda think that o maybe i have affection towards............. hah christine has heard tons of it... but now it's very blah... but he's a good friend i guess. hah darn it! yes I'm a lil sad, but whatevers i guess now. he does look good in a suit hah....

I'm pooped out~ hah...erg.bleh..(yes i use many of christine's terms)

NIGHT

Posted 7:17 PM by Libby

I am finally home from work~ I went with Christine to the mall to hang outw/ sandy for her break.. then to target to get her digital photos made... aww brian and her are so cute :P

Daniel came to visit me @ work twice XP. hehe.. hah and I got in trouble for hanging out w/ him outside. hah... it's okii my first offence at gogo . He came with me to RiteAid to get a bandage for the cook Armando @ gogo who burned himself.. ouch... Then later he came dressed up for his formal thing. heh...

Esther came also, and we chilled a lil before she went to art class.

HOWARD you owe me~ big time... So does anyone else in Trig~ this includes bryan also hah.

wells home now, carless and just talking online w/ bathilda, colin, and christine....

I want the Care Bear... the blue one!! I saw it at the mall yesterday and I miss those stuffed animals! When I was little , I used to listen to the tapes and have the color books for Care Bears!... Carlton gifts in the mall has it! I wannnnt it :-/ *pout* heh... Del amo is very dead... When we were there yesterday, i got this gross up and down stare from some oldman... i walked right into bathilda hah when i tried to avoid his look. sick. ugh.

Posted 12:46 AM by Libby

hm a lil annoyed today... so much stuff happened which was sucky doodle..

bombardment today... i feel embarassed sorta... hah he was so put on the spot..... some other things ticked me off today but whatever hah... i'll just leave it alone and see what will happen~

i'm pooped out frm walking so much today.

Posted 4:51 PM by Libby

LOOK AT MY PROFILE> BAD DAY~ i feel like screaming... someone take me out!

Posted 12:12 AM by Libby

I feel like melancholy .... is that the word? ugh.... what i want , i can't have~ suckydoodle. heh. but then i do have it......

Posted 10:10 PM by Libby

can i ever trust anyone gese o wheeze... these days have been freaking weird... and they just get more and more random every single day... what the heck hah??!!

Posted 3:38 PM by Libby

I owe bathilda a buck heh... Her and Jennifer came with me to go find a dress... after a couple hours i found 'the' dress... It's a strapless, tube dress, with like fluttery bottom that's assymetrical with one side hella short to long... jen and bathilda's look on their face made me think they were thinking that short side was ' short' but the dress is like okii overall, I don't feel like investing into dresses anymore hah~
It took a while to find shoes but I found like okii ones... Last time I wore 4 1/2 inch heels that were killer after the first hour. This time i bought 3 inch heels hah. we went to gogo juice... thai tea is sorta gross... it's so orange hah... the color is scary.

In spanish I got out of the spanish oral haha up until tuesday yippy :-D. The teacher ran out of time for me hehe... I have to slave in yearbook tomorrow probably for a while. o wells hah~

happy day for me!

Posted 10:05 PM by Libby

yAy.. I'm going to formal w/ Daniel(RHP)~heh... He's so nice ~ and it was so fun to talk to him about what type of dress I should get for the dance hah... i've ended with a black, short, assymetrical dress. he came by to get the guest pass from me... gosh... i duno what's up with me, i notice all these small things... hah, erg... what is up with me!? hah... dude this is not good.i think.

I invited him to go to fridaynite church thing hah... i think he must have though... wth.. hah~ Maybe he'll go .. o wells.. anyways~
Just happy that my date to formal will be fun hah... hopefully he knows how to dance? hah.. My mom is all nosy into what's going on in my life hah... it's funny. She pops into my room and is like " are you talking about a boy? I hope it isn't who i think it is!" heh..bye

Posted 3:38 PM by Libby

okay econ is done with thus far hah... Now i have to stress for spanish. I think i'm just going to fail the final. arGg... school ended @ noon... we went to the biblioteca... gese it's been ages since i've went to the library... we( jenn, melissa, nancy, and I) then ate lunch at Rubies then i went shopping... i bought Af crap and that's pretty much it. A/F has very cute undies hah... I'm afraid to buy something that would be bathilda style so then i kept asking nancy, 'is this something bathilda would wear?' hah...I"m so tired erg.. I can't wait till tomorrow, then it's all freedom for me hehe...

Posted 9:57 PM by Libby

i'm worried.. i dont' want that chance to ever get caught up again and get hurt again hah.... ERG. stressful. again...but things seem so fun and happy at the same time. welllllllllll gosh.... this is like a dilemma.. blehhhh

Posted 3:10 PM by Libby

So who am I to go to Formal with?! noOne?/??/ ahhh~~~ everyone says i'm gay worrying bcuz i technically have a date sort of hah... even though i haven't seen his face or anything... I think Julie can go with him and I'll just ask *. haHAha I think he'll say no because I'm just so weird already to him.

I was discussing him to JonH. today... He was saying he has a random resemblence to Marcus Yu? someone frm NU? i don't know why but that name sounds so familiar. I saw that Marcus person's pix and I DO not think they look anyway alike other than the eyebrows, and anyways heis hella tall and I am pretty sure that the marcus dude is a shorty. Jon saw him I guess the day Christine made me fool for sure.

I duno what happened to bathilda today... she gave me a letter like 2nd period then disapeered frm school hah.. it was really random, she drew a picture of me cartoon style, then there was a pic of her
and a picture of that daniel guy... she thinks he's 'cute' ...hah... well As the Nigerian man said..... *nothing* haha.

Too much econ today. byebye

Posted 9:25 PM by Libby

I just got back from gogo juice... dude my brother is so gay hahh... he changed my away message to this: Auto response from LiLChewToy84: tobacco companies have a strategy.. advertising. it works, i smoke. www.thetruth.com save yourselves before they get you too. so funny hah

Well I chilled with Daniel(RHP), he's really a nice guy hah.( could i just not keep mentioning he's nice)..He is so freaking tall... 6 feet ! wtf~... Today was so random... A black man (nigerian to be exact) came and randomly wanted sat down bcuz he wanted to be friends with us because He was trying something new (new to america type of person)... Also Roger harassed us today... ,, bathilda came with mike afsa haha.... everything was such randomness.... but cool hah.

Posted 6:07 PM by Libby

goodness, another daniel I met today... daniel osugi's roommate.- daniel kim... could there FREAKING be any more daniels to remember!

the rhp)daniel came today to visit... he's a nice guy. danielT came today too hah... and gave me a ride home frm work... DANIEL TAKAHASHI STOP SMOKING WEED! gosh I'm worried about him! I hope he reads this! He's so not taking moderation...!@#$%. I am going to force him to come to church w. me one day soon..... I bought a new case and lights for my phone... they have blinking lights in the front area. hah~ i like it very much. i hope i don't lose my phone or break it hah...

Well I'm gonna go out to play now w. daniel number 6000... hahaha ... gosh they need like ID numbers... there's hella too many daniels ... asian parents need to reconsider a new name.

Posted 1:10 AM by Libby

Tonight I just chilled w. DanC. at gogo then we went to swing on the swings at Arnold Elem. Like old times... I later on got a crzy headache... maybe too much thinking plus the cold wasn't cool. too skinny for this weather.

i talked to Daniel #50 (WHY DO SO MANY PARENTS NAME THEIR CHILD DANIEL?!) tonite also hah... I tried and attempted but failed. Ah wells. the effort counts. Christine you are seirously gonna get a beating by me hah, I look like a ditz~... especially with the information I had to learn directly from hiM!. omg,,,

Posted 5:17 PM by Libby

CHRISTINE YOU ARE DEAD MEAT !~! She made me sound like a fool today by calling me while she's at work then giving her phone to that daniel guy... It sounds like I'm a weirdo... Dude and I was just thinking in my mind when I realized it was that guy " shit..shit .. shit" hahha... I didn't know how to respond gosh. I want this guy to go with my friend bathilda to the formal, but i duno wth this guy is now thinking hah... Then Christine must add by speaking outloud while obviously this guy is still there and sayig that I wanted his number blabhlahblah... i will kick her butt later.

what the heck is msn also? someone tell me hah...

Posted 2:38 PM by Libby

I went to service today also.... I felt that everything applied to what I'mstruggling with...Sunday School was the same too arg... I feel bad that I wasn't too yAyish when i saw Mr./Mrs. sung... bathilda said I looked like blah when they said hi to me. i didni't even realize i had changed my expression... aRg. okay going to wrok on the stop crap. bye

Posted 1:58 AM by Libby

On the How Asian Test Are YOu? ~ I recieved a 27% hah.

Posted 1:51 AM by Libby

Tonight I went out to Lollicup to meet up w/ Shirley. Jeannie was there too, right after talking to her online like 4 minutes earlier which was a funny coincidence. Shirley and I chilled there until (POMONA)Daniel (I have forgotten his last name but this is once again another DANIEL that i know ... I think this is the 9th Daniel) and Cynthia come. Ian H was there too bcuz he works with Shirley but I think he felt sorta out of place :P Well it ends up we're at AMC deciding to watch a movie and all we do is lag until we change our mind bcuz I mention that I am mighty hungry... These days I seem to want to binge at late nights hahaah.... well ian goes home and the rest of us go to In and Out and eat and chill and talk about all this random stuff... dude cynthia tells me that * wanted to go w/ me to black and white?!?! I mean what?!?! I was surprised but also bleh bcuz BW was already mentioned previouslyand he said he wasnt' planning to go at all.... hah O WELL, I've got my date already...anyways other than that, pretty good night... I come home to online and blahblahblahblahbblah.... gnite.

Posted 7:08 PM by Libby

I woke up with another seriously wack dream. why the hell am I dreaming stupid stuff,... it makes me feel like crap once again. It took me forever to get out of bed bcuz I was just scared about it once again.. wtf!

At work it was the same ol'... dude brian and christine talk like old people! That daniel guy and his friend come again today hah. His friend is pretty cute subtract the hair color. At last minute, i go up to them while they're almost ot their car and was like " hey guy (even though he and i know each other's name) my friend thinks you're cute" hah...I kind of want to put bathilda and him together maybe for the formal. He seems like a nice guy. There was to be a phone number exchange but then I'm just like " just come by gogo later or whatnot and we'll talk more about it " hahahaha he probalby was like whoa.

Omg and to add to this, Curtis and Chet come by to visit me at work... Like earlier days curtis was wanting to know who I thought was arrite and I wouldn't tell him other than I said he's from Rolling Hills Prep School. hah ... then like today Curtis was like telling he just said wassup to thethose guys at the car tinting place... Curtis was getting his suv tinted and he said hi to them... and then he told me that yea he knew them... i was like ' wth... this is a freaking small world'...... ahh hah... i asked curtis if he thought that daniel would maybe go with bathilda and stuff to formal... He told me also that the other guy is sort of a stuck up, so forget it now hah.. I hate those fake people. I also got to talk to bat and Connie chung when they came and shockingly connie knew the same friend Joanne frm RHP and she gave me her cell #. I wanted to catch up on old times... arrgg so much stuff everyday.

O yes and I find out today from Shirley and Cynthia that DanielT was wanting to go with me to Black and White?! Hah What the ?? Like I was talking to Daniel about it earlier in the week and he just seemed really just bummed about his system getting jacked from his prelude... And Cynthia tells me that yeah Daniel mentioned on Friday that he wanted to go to the dance with me... Dude haha, it could have been like old times ..bcuz I went to 8th grade grad with him. He's a very nice guy, other than the smoking weed problem... Addicts suck okay~ I feel so bad because on Friday I called him during his 4th period of class and instead of him not accepting the call, he answers it in class.... DuDe @ south they are gay about cell phones in school and he got his phone confiscated! I feel so bad. He didn't even tell me, S and C tell me today... i feel so bad about that... I called him about getting James Kang and Young's Parents name for the Guest pass info stuff.... arg...

Posted 1:24 AM by Libby

notice how it hurts when people talk shit about others...anger, grief, pain?... I wonder how those people who noone talks about feel in life? left out, alone , or just are they a nobody ... which is better? These trivial things are really complicated.

Posted 1:14 AM by Libby

At Econ, Helen and I went to have a smoke break bcuz the sub let us do whatever. I really like the small talks I have had with her becuz it's ones that really gets me back on track on the real crap I should be worried about. Even though we're almost a year apart in age, I really respect her in her mentalities. very cool.. I came to spanish class only to realize I screwed up w/ my spanish notebook but it's all good. IFinished the test which is fine with me.
I realize thatI am not a good friend to some, and I hope to change this in the future. I am young and I realize that I still have a lot to learn and I need to Learn to handle my responsibilities. It's like so close within grasp but I'm not quite there yet. I have so many dreams of different things and I think I leave a lot hanging or either not fully forfilled..suX.
At the same time, I should feel happy that I've come this far. I am going to try to be more selfless and less selfish about things. I think i am pretty damn selfish and that's something I have to work on ..promise :P Though people may thing I'm pretty selfless already... I personally think i can do much more, and I will try to do that.
Back to High school life, I have the dances and finals to worry about. I'm trying to worry about the small things first :) I have that prob. of worrying too far in the future, and I just get screwed with that. I also need to eat more food. I think my stomach shrank a lot! I bet I'll get ill early in life hah... I must also learn to not blame AnYONE else for my own problems... I think I just cause stupid shit to happen to myself, and i'm just stupid in that. Other people should worry about their own problems because if they can't see it, i can't help them in that. I'm just too damn empathetic to other people and I'm not God so I can't do jack.
I bought an outfit that I will wear to Black and White.. it's this black top that has like sheer parts and black parts to it.. very cute :P I also bought these pinstriped black pants.. my friends say I look sorta rockpunkish w. all that black... just need to pain my nails black now hah... We went to In and Out after this and these guys whistled to us hahh ...losers. Melissa came ...went to get gas w/ her, then we went to get gas w/ jenn then went to church. gay but at church, everything seemed to pertain to what I was lacking... like anger and stuff like that. wOw.. byron even mentioned aobut how " a sin is a sin' that's that... very shocking indeed...
After church sam and I just chilled at Starbucks and talked a bit... He's a very good guy. Another I find admirable w/ kalvin. I think when I go to San Fransisco, I'll just go chill w/ sam.. He said he woudl help meout about getting to stockton and stuff. :-D NiGHT

Posted 10:56 PM by Libby

Wow, guest passes thing has totally cleared now. It is a little relief in such little time. It was so weird in all this.. I got to talk again to James Kang, wow after all these years... Like we haven't gotten to talk talk for like 5 years now. He says I'm so different now, but in sucha good way , "matured" hhaha... it kinda makes me embarassed that he still remembered how i acted back when i first moved here from Kentucky, but it was really cool. I do see how i've changed soo much, it's just shocking. He has also changed for the better also. He's going out with Young Oh... hehe that's very cool too. yeah... i'm really so happy for him. and plus he's really come to see christ which is iduno... weird too. I duno... i'm really happy for him and I coudln't stop from mentioning it to him.heh

Posted 7:30 PM by Libby

Today I recieved my first compliment in ages:

Danny: wanna know sumthing?
me: you r strange danny NAnanNananananannananana
danny: hahah
me: haha what?
danny: for sum reason, im sure allen feels this too
danny: but for sum strange reason
me: okkk? strange reasonnn?/
danny: whenever me or allen think about you you seem a lot older than us
danny: is that wierd?
me: really haha?
me: but i'm not though
danny: seriously yea i kno
danny: but you seem so
danny: much older
me: cool? i guess hah
me: i think you are older than me
danny: maybe cuz we act like fuckin dumbASSES~!
danny: hahah...theres my answer
me: haha i agree.

Posted 6:52 PM by Libby

i duno what insight i am getting frm praying for all the mess that has happened... it seems to do jack!

Now there's this big mess now with guest passes... all the little things are tumbling down also hah

Posted 2:13 PM by Libby

well... today I got asked to South high's dance @ school... S oo :P Also todayI found out that the south dance is one day before Pen's Formal which I am also going to. hah. I should be like yippy yay but I'm like just feeling tired all the time now... What dress to wear?? I am definately never going to wear that lavender dress ever again, so I think I may have to go dress shopping after finals. Well today I finally actually ate a full meal today. The Chinese noodle stuff , a nestea and a strawberry drink. I feel sick right now because it's been so much food so quickly. hah.. My little bro is going with this japanese chick from West to the BW.. I'm happy for him :)

Yeah Daniel YOU SHOULD BE SORRY. jk. I forgive him hah so long that he put up that away message for me this whole day+ leaving an im for me. the dork.

I have so much crap to do today.. Study for Spanish Verbs... Stock project and many others... Good thing my psych teacher made the test on tuesday...

I have asked Steve nish to ask marcus or whatever hisname is to email me for more info on Purdue :P I've already gotten in and i'm just wanting to hear what he thinks about the school and stuff...

Posted 10:14 PM by Libby

I feel like i ended up being a worse christian in the end... how gay is this... everthing really SUCKS a LOT. I can't handle a lot and i don'twantto set false hopes ugh. I apologize that as friend I was not a good one, I am not strong enough as a Christian to forgive at this time... I need time to handle it. goodbye

Posted 7:19 PM by Libby

i just gave up. it's depressing. everything.

Posted 2:59 PM by Libby

I just thought a lil... who am i going to invite to my graduation? haha.. I have a lot of relatives that would come down... and some other peoples that said they want to see me off b4 i grad.. wow.. i grew up... heh sounds very stupid, but I guess I can wallow in feeling like a typical senior in high school. So much has happened to me... i duno haha .. i'm like "whoa". I don't want to cry at graduation so that'll be something I can worry about sooner hah... Waterproof mascara~

Posted 2:17 PM by Libby

Dude, hahaha, I so knew that my cat would click me frm away when i was at school! hahahahhaha... bcuz when i was leaving home my cat was playing with the ball on my mouse on the table.. I come home to see all these ims like " why aren't you at school you ditcher" haha...

I think I might now be going to formal for sure... just duno exactly who. And for Black and White @ south, that's a i duno also... All the girls are going I think ...soo I'd like to try something and go out with them again hah... I've been like in a black hole these 3 years with most of the happenings...

Lunch, I got to chat a lil with Moran about everything... she's very cool with everything :P I felt very mellow after. I have so much homework ! not even funny ~

And freakin eh,,, i just realized today was 75 degrees! I was soo cold through the whole day. I was wearing 2 shirts under my sweater... and still a bit chilly. I hope I don't get a cold. it sUx a lot...

I don't think my brother is really going to talk to me nowadays because i got pissed off at him which sux also. I wish i didn't get mad at him. i had no right...

O yes... some dude that knows my cousin from up north left me an im hah... randomness also... all guys= scrubs hah.

Posted 9:22 PM by Libby

Erg. Deborah got sick... Good thing she's okay now... hah. she got the same thing i got~

My dad gave me Belgium Chocolates to gain some more body fat. hah.. I just need to drink more water. My body is really whack still. I wish i never got sick the freakin first place. I probably will losemy kidney when i'm like 20. damn

Posted 7:10 PM by Libby

I just talked to my Kentucky friends.... gosh , it brings back so many memories.... I miss them so much now. I really have taken took much for granted these days... We have soo much to catch up on. Natalie and Katie were my best friends there and we were like best buddies from 1st grade until I moved. I knew them in Kindergarden but I couldn't remember much being 5 years old! I can't wait to go in April... that'll be so cool So many other people too! The same original group of people that I've known from Kindergarden! good times for sure :)

Thank you bathilda for your cd. It's so calming. Actually this is my first personal cd someone made for me to have which is cool :-)

I apologize to my little brother. I just got so pissed off at him online and I realize it was totally uncalled for. so yeah. he's probalby not going to talk to me now. ugh

Posted 4:40 PM by Libby

there are too many daniels and it's so funny now to think about how many i know now hah. melissa was even getting confused with my stories heh
1. Daniel Kan
2. Daniel C.
3. DanielT.
4. Another DanielC.
5.Daniel O.
6. Daniel K.

okay very confusing but hah, can't asian people think of another name to name their son??? I mean how many asian Elizabeth's can you name? I bet not more than 6 oki hah

Posted 4:17 PM by Libby

While at school, I find out the effects of Christine's texting haha! She put stuff like " Kiss me, I am lonely... or I like little boys" hahahaha...

Jeannie just called and told me 4 sure Derrek(uclaguy) would go... I'm just apprehensive because this guy sounds like a toughguy.. and i really don't like mean guys at all. So I guess I'll just meet him and what not and see what's up :) all everyone keeps telling me is that he's wayy more cut he's tall too. hah ... sounds more like another bully to me. jkjk

I went to Gogo and chitchatted w. christine and brian while with bathilda... hah ... i think he may think she's a bit oddball... bathilda was acting funny hehe... We were talking about the RHP guys...

I'm gonna have dinner w/ danielT later... if his parents aren't too mad at him. erg. His system got jacked~ sux majorly... i feel for him.. when parents are pissed off it's not a good feeling at all.

Posted 10:00 PM by Libby

Me: He (ja rule) looks like a bull dog
Bathilda (on the phone): no... acutally he looks like a black gopher...
Me: (in my mind): a piece of poo with a mustache twitching while he's rapping...

haha something random just now

Posted 9:14 PM by Libby

I am happy. I am going to an interview for the Honors Dental Hygiene prog. up north in Feb... I just read the letter that I missed opening earlier today. I'm been numbered down... i feel smiley YaY :)

Posted 8:04 PM by Libby

wtf is up with this blogger. !>? i just wrote in it like 3 times and it's messing up like mad.

Today I got back from work... DanielT came to visit me bcuz he was bored... we discussed how he should go to church with me. and I am going to force him hah... you'll see. I personally don't think anything is wrong with blazing unless you are an addict (addicted to anything is bad) and I think he is turning into one. So i am concerned. Esther came out and we all just had a lil break for a bit before I left. She is gangster , if i wasn't friends with her , i would be scared of her hah.. . she knows what's up and wants to beat the shit out of *. hahahahaha... it's all good. she's got her girls out there hahh... o by the way this isn't esther in my grade... older esther

RHP guys came once again with his friends... I've met this guy only because he comes and gets the same freaking drink everytime I work . the first time I met him, i thought he was seriously gay and i told Christine because he dresses sooo nice for a guy... but then i find out he's just some very extremely spoiled guy. He drives a whoa car for freaking sake.. hah... Melissa noticed him b4 too . Their lil posse is like the rich of the rich or something. DanielT didn't htink he was around our age. His friend reminds me of Danny from G.O.D.... but I'm pretty sure he's korean, just hellllllaaa tall...

Anyways... talk more when i feel like it. geting annoyed that this online blog is screwing up and i have to write my story out over and over again. this is the last time. if it doesn't work this blog is done for.

Posted 9:44 PM by Libby

kalvin: yeah, but ultimately, having a relationship with God as the foundation is a lot firmer and sounder than one without- it will be marked by genuine trust, care, and understanding in the relationship

very good advice .. had to cut and paste

Posted 5:01 PM by Libby

I am taking a break from homework. I reorganized my buddy list. The groups now are: PenHigh, SouthHigh, College and above, Family people, Kentucky, Privateschool, West Hihg, and church. i just noticed that there are so many college people online but they are contstantly on away...hah , they want to use up their high speed internet i think. dude, talking to * makes me depressed after. It's like after talking to him, he makes me feel depressed for the things i would think i would be happy for... like as though i feel like i'm selfish unknowingly... on the other hand, Sam liu is a total 180 and ijust feel so happy after talking to him. I hope i have a sam liu at my college to talk to. if not. i think i'll go mad.

Jeff had just called earlier to ask how i was~ that was very cool of him :) I also talked to kalvin today about getting someone to keep me on check as a Christian... I have 3 choices so I'll decide soon which person. i really hope i can forfill more things to be a better christian... i've been living in too much shit for too long...anywaysss..... I do look up to kalvin. If i were to ever have a kid, i would want himto grow up to end up being like a kalvin sung. god bless him.

oki my lips are chapped , i think its bcuz i keep biting my bottom lip a lot. heh... g2g back to hw

Posted 2:39 PM by Libby

I saw this on jinkooks website as i was browsing around and it mademe feel sad and happy... watch the presentation. Intervieww/god

Posted 2:20 PM by Libby

Posted 12:28 AM by Libby

We ended up not *******... heh, i'm actually glad because truthfully I was apprehensive, bcuz i don't think it's something my concious feels too great about doing. We ate at the spoon in gardena... yummy spaghetti. I really think Christine and Brian are so adorable... It just made me think of happier days ;-). I didn't really feel like a third wheel or anything bcuz i knew both peoples, so we all got to get chatty. They are realllly cute i must say again. Afterwards we went to the movies to watch "Just Married". Haha, i kept seeing someone I knew and they said hi and stuff and Christine and Brian were teasing that I knew everyone in the movie thing haha... I even knew the Popcorn guy, Keigo Fugasaki was working that day hah... he was the guy I never paid for the Card in chemistry class... Andy Cohen sat next to Brian hah... and behind me were some of my old south high friends....goodness anyways... that movie is so cute and remeniscent... the fights and makeups between Ashton and Britney made me not sad, but smile. So many people laugh and went silent at the exact parts in the movie that you would react to. "honesty" is something that the movie really emphasized.... erg...

AnyWayYYysSsss... I wish ~~ would watch the movie someday... I think he hates me right now, and I don't really understand why... I guess it's not my place to know... I called him today from the theatre (dumb).... and he was annoyed at me for calling him. I think i should delete his phone number from my cell. it's too easy for me to dial. people, if you see me sometime soon please tell me " elizabeth , you are dumb." heh... yeah it's weird bcuz i want to talk to him like a friend, but i don't think he's acutally cool with it anymore.. Probably because I scared him with my ' i'll pray for you 'thing. o well, i'll see what happens later on i guess. Does he think i'm going to be in the dumps because I got dumped? I'm actually very understanding to why we aren't together and that's why i'm moving on. I think it's probably because I was hanging out with "his" friend brian, but that isn't why i went out; it's because Christine invited me to eat dinner with them. I also think he may be bitter because I may have discussed him while we were out, but quite to the contrary. If he's scared of people knowing the truth, that's his own problem. Truth is the best thing... even if it may not feel that great...who ever said telling the truth is bad? it may be hard, but it's usually the best thing.

After playing with Brian and Christine, I see them as totally different people. Brian really isn't a mysterious guy... it's just when he's doing something, he sticks with it and doesn't get bypassed by other people and things (i.e. cell phone going off at random moments). I really hope the best for them. hehe... earlier today at work, i was telling Christine about how i envy good Christian couples because while they have god in the center of their relationship, they always seem to end up the best compared to other kinds of couples... then later on, I was happy that Christine,,, on her own... texts and discusses with Brian that maybe they should go to church... i was really happy for them and i told Sam Liu about it. I duno... such good things really happen for good hearted people. Well I'll write more stuff later. bye

Posted 7:14 PM by Libby

Wells today, i woke up to the scariest dream that I had... someone had died and I felt terrible because I felt like i was the cause of it. ... weird huh.. I can't remember much now other than i was scared and felt guilty. I went to work. it was fun harhar. Sam came and we chitchatted and stuff. :)

After work, Rj came to Gogo and then we chilled together... old times and all the crap he's doing and stuff... dude he's got mad beef with his ex. it's crazy shit hah. made me feel like what i went through was like nothing.

Tonght, going to go chill with Christine and Brian... we gonna ***** and grub dinner . arG``` hah... the freedom is so tight. Being single is so different and I love it!

My formal situation is with derrek... jeannie is the coolest girl getting me a formal date.. Ucla eh...wohoo. a taller guy yay. All the little things in life make me so happy :)

Posted 2:10 AM by Libby

I thank god for so much understanding in my life. Please people don't harass ~~okay. He is, just like everyone else in the world like me, lost in many things that god wants us to see. I see that god doesn't want us together because it really was a bad relationship that god wasnt' placed in correctly. I still love him as a brother in christ and I will pray for him, as well as myself. Hate doesn't solve jack. and I learned very shortly. I may sound wack but I thank God that I realized him in my life now. I just hope i can stay close to him because he has blessed so much more thigns in my life now. He has made me closer to my family, closer to Christianity, closer to Friends... heck I even now have a date to Formal which I wasn't worrying about at all... a guy from UCLA.... I am truly with peace in my heart....good night

Posted 4:50 PM by Libby

Today was oki thus far. I got my second ear pierced... I also bought Clinique. O yes, we played the lottery today and won some money w/ bat. Out to dinner soon w/ buddies.. :-D byEe

Posted 6:43 PM by Libby

Want to know the storyline? Hubert I were going out haha ... then comes along this chick Christina Park. He falls for her because she's there and close ... it's all good now. Hubert doesn't put his mind on it and just follows his heart .. like I see where it went wrong..the heart isn't always right.. when making your judgments you must use mind and heart together. I think this isn't Christina's fault at all other than she doesn't think about it that he had a girlfriend... ( i laugh now looking at it) So what does hubert do?

He tells her he'll break up with me... but the thing is he fails for a whilee.... and lies to me telling me there's no girl or nothing and telling me unsure things...like saying that we still have love and stuff. wack right? but listen now.

He used me hah. i felt ughed but it's also my fault ya know...i coudlnt' realize during all this happenings... he starts to lie a grip... like he was never like this before ya kno? no matter what he says to me that he didn't lie to her; that's not possible with the things that happened between us. any decent girl would never take a guy like that... She deserves a better guy than that if she's really that nice ya know... no hate though. i'll still be friends with him because i'll be that nice person to do that... i don't know why he wants to be friends with me really... maybe he'll tell me why one day... if it's because he 'cares' that wouldn't make sense? i duno what he cares about me... is it pity to me? I dont' need pity from him hahaa... he needs other people's pity. I'll pray for him seriously... I'm no good christian but for sure, but he definately isn't a good Christian either. haha. God has pity.

he lies to his family, friends... yet he says, ' he doesn't give a fuck about other people'... then why does he get so pissed off about it... if he doesn't care then stop talking about it so much... he talked shit about me to people so might as well turn the table around ...............o and he also lied to my parents also... he's got his heart on cloud 9 now. He is obviously not feeling for anyone else other than himself, or he wouldn't drive this nail in deeper.

I just seriously feel bad for Christina now ... will she always be sure that he'll never do that to her? use her? or have secrets...? She doesn't know everything yet, but time will tell. Will they get married lol.. yeah right... i'm sure his fam just loves her. haha. she should think wisely before jumping into this shit.. it's sticky icky especially

I'm over him because noone deserves to be treated like the things he did. i'm not here to judge for what he will do to her, but he'll see it in himself... but by then , who knows, maybe it'll be too late for that next girl... God forgives all sin, but i'm not god ...so just letting everyone know that I will never ever go out with him in my life. I'd be a dumbass to go near someone tainted like him... so that is why I am in high spirits. Christina's friend was right okay. I was stupid to go for a guy that got jacked. Because a guy can't be jacked... unless he's just an object. I do feel stupid begging before. That's just dumb shit. heh.. it's the past though, just like this relationship.

I do realize I got my friends... the true ones... and they aren't like shitty either... i ddin't expect it, but they really did understand. I know where my love should really go to :) oki byebye

if you don't like my blog, then you can suck it . because i've been censored for everything i ever said when i was with hub. and i finally get to say it out. If you think this story is otherwise... tell me. because i'm being very truthful okay. I really did get screwed over bcuz i was dumb. He did go for another girl. She does like him. I'll leave losers to love each other. :-D I'll leave this all over in this blog. After this I 'll talk more about happy days ...

Posted 1:54 PM by Libby

i'm free of everything :-D i feel a lot better letting it all out.

Posted 11:09 PM by Libby

Thank you all my girls for being there,... thank you allen, kalvin, carol for being for me when i was down... I got fucked over by hubert but i still care to be friends. That Christina girl's lil best buddy is a piece of shit. I would fuck her up if she ever had the guts to give me her name. xHuMMinGxBiRdx anyone, go harass this sn...i could care less. what type of girl would have an sn like that...lol... she thinks she's a cute bird or something lol... okay that made me feel better hah. Yeah if anyone feels like talking shit to hubert feel free... i don't have the guts to do that ChiLee123. ATTN: I take no responsibility if he blows up at you, he has the shortest temper so watch it. yeah , i'm weak... that's why i'm the one that gets screwed over and left with a lot of shit to handle. He took everything from me, pride and all.
But I come through to see that God doesn't want me to be in a relationship like I had with hubert... it was really whack, and it was him. It wasn't something good in God's eyes, and i'm good with that.

I duno but i really care about hubert's family. they really are nice people... just sux w./ hubert. he really screwed me over. and in the end. i tell him, yeah just go out with her, since you won't compromise and i'll just be friends wtih you.... his response is automatically "thank you." JUSt PEACHY HUh~