Posted 3:04 PM by Libby

GAME OVER YOU FREAKS...STOP READING MY LIFE IF YOU DON"T EVEN KNOW ME

Posted 12:31 AM by Libby

i talk too much about my issues... bleh... unnecessary drama. :P I hope everything goes for the best in the end ...

lalala

Today went to work, then allen came to visit and chat... philip came afterwards and we went to eat @ islands... then everything got cleared ... never doubted the girls for sure. :P 110%! :-D philip likes to baby his car.. haha... homehomehome

chicago is supposidly a greatgreat movie... i wanna see Lose a guy in 10 days.. or ditch a guy , i forgot the title name...

Posted 11:08 AM by Libby

i am sad once again coming online... hubert andi talked, and he's angry for me... as well as allen also and i duno anymore... i have a legit reason right? fuck... i'm such a dumbass/ not 'too nice' just a dumbass~ I hate senior year... everything is so gay for me.... gonna go to work now bye

Posted 12:27 AM by Libby

tonight was whatevers... it ended fucking gay.... david ahn and others wanna beat on daniel.... ahh shit is not cool when buzzed.... I end up getting pissed off for my own ligitimate reasons but daniel's gotta lot shit @ obi house... whatevers... i try being peace maker.... this crap is gay... forget guys.. and the whole things... i get screwed over a lot ... i'm just so unlucky... f* them all. THIs has been the first time ever to have a bad trip for drinking ever! I am done w/ inviting people to come out w/ my friends damn... I am so sad right now... I try to do the right things, but it just ends up w/ me feeling like total shit in the end. I am tired of being 'nice'... stupid him, flirting like crazy w/ my friends... even my friends see that he's messed, so much gay crap... i want to just i duno... i really dunos... just in shock period.

Posted 4:56 PM by Libby

copied frm howard ~

/// series one - as usual
-- Name: elizabeth
-- Birthdate: dec.19.1984
-- Birthplace: palo alto, ca
-- Eye Color: Brown
-- Hair Color: Brown
-- Righty or Lefty: right
-- Zodiac Sign: saggitarius / mouse

///series 2 - describe
-- Your heritage: chinese and japanese... with some random polish hah ifyou wannabe technical
-- The shoes you wore today: um hah
-- Your hair: short :( straight
-- Your eyes: brown
-- Your weakness?: pretty nice...
-- Your fears: getting jacked
-- Your perfect pizza: bbq one

/// series three - what is
-- Your most overused phrases on aol: heh, hah,
-- Your thoughts first waking up: sleep
-- The first feature (thing) you notice in the opposite sex: hair is prob the veryvery first but others come after
-- The best Name for a Butler: bob
-- Your best physical feature: i don't have any ..fuGlY!
-- Your bedtime: i want 10 but it doesn't seem to end up 10
-- Your greatest fear: i already answered
-- Your greatest accomplishment: school hah
-- Your most missed memory: kentucky

/// series four - you prefer
-- Pepsi or coke: coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: bleh...whatever...
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Adidas or nike: adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappucino or coffee: cappu
-- Boxers or briefs: boxers

/// series five - do you
-- Smoke: stopping it down... socialy hah
-- Cuss: yea :*(
-- Sing well: hah noo,, jeannie is the singer not i
-- Take a shower everyday: yup
-- Do you think you've been in love: :(
-- Want to go to college: yesyes... i justwill miss home
-- Like high school: it's okay and blah sometimes
-- Want to get married: haha yeah of course one day... i duno about kids though... i'll like die hah
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys:yeah i guess
-- Believe in yourself: no hah not too strong
-- Get motion sickness: yup on rollercoasters.omg
-- Think you're attractive: not really
-- Think you're a health freak: i'm okay... i don't like unhealthy stuff all the time
-- Get along with your parents: yup
-- Like thunderstorms: scary but sometimes pretty
-- Play an instrument:i played piano and violin

/// series six - in the past month, did/have you
-- Drank alcohol: y
-- Smoke(d): y
-- Eaten sushi: y
-- Been on stage: n
-- Been dumped: y
-- Gone skating: n
-- Made homemade cookies: yeah! i used to make it so much back in track days... i make the best cookies in the world
-- Been in love: ...
-- Gone skinny dipping:n
-- Dyed your hair: y
-- Stolen anything: n

/// series seven - have you ever
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: Haha
-- If so, was it mixed company: lol
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: no not extremely... noone to take care of me hah
-- Gotten beaten up: no hell no
-- Shoplifted: hah yea /none of this crap no more/
-- If so, did you get caught: no /heck no/
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no gay

// series eight - opposite sex
-- Best eye color? brown
-- Best hair color? anycolor
-- Short or long hair? short duh
-- Best height: taller than me...sorry shorties
-- Best weight: not fat... hah... sorry, not tryign to be superficial... no thickies hah...
-- Best articles of clothing: casual but good lookin /not bummy /
-- Best first date location: who cares
-- Best first kiss location: who cares

/// series eight - the future
-- Age you hope to be married: around 25-27?
-- Numbers and Names of Children: i want a boy first then a girl, so the boy can take care of the girl :) but i don't want to have babies... i'll die once again
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: i duno
-- How would you like to die: not anytime soon i hope
-- Where you want to go to college: anywhere that i end up
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: dental hygienist or dentist...
-- What country would you most like to visit: egypt hA!

Posted 1:02 AM by Libby

Oki, it's very late right now ... yes way past my bedtime... I guess I end this day hoping the best for me.... Talking to jeannie, jenny,milena made me realize very many things.... That I'm me and I gotta be more assertive. heh... well... I'm glad I have gained a good friend in all of this... it's something that is more resilient and longer lasting ya kno? ... I'll save that other jar up far away and in the back for maybe another time... it's sorta bleh but I realize when i look at it in a bigger sense, it's more beneficial in the long run... who knows what the future hold you know? This has been a learning experience that I must learn to have have patience and be more humble in the sense that I can't have everything I want... and sometimes the things i want are frivilous(spelling)... I mean though I try to be genuine and true, I lack patience; and that is something that is very important in life... I am trying to be a nicer person to people and I think My niceness has been done in the wrong sense... I don't want to get trampled but I think w/ time i can fix that too... it's just that I gotta find a way that makes me feel better... bcuz truthfully, something is like empty inside... yeah i probably sound random but o wells..... my blog so whatevers about my deep thought...
Hm, I don't really want to go to college that's far away from home... I'll miss my parents as odd as that sounds... I like stability... I wonder where i will go to college... I don't want college to change me, i want college to fit me. I'm really sick of fakeness... it erks me that people can be shallow... NOT POINtING fingers so don't worry... i'm just thinking of everythign in general... .. I think i'm too much of an emotional type hah... I'm so easily empathetic to others... gosh it's until it's sickening... i don't know why stupid things get to me about others who are sad or down... maybe that's why i like mexico missions so much... bcuz i can visibly see that I'm helping others who aren't as fortunate... maybe that's selfish... ahh idunos...
I am hungry hah... yes random again... okay I"M GOING TO EAT food at Such late night... heh ... goodbye

o yes, I have recieved the newest nickname frm phillip.... he wants to call me "beth"... hahahaha I try to picture myself a beth and all I see is a freaking cow hahahaa.... oki bye

Posted 5:42 PM by Libby

home again frm gogo... went to just chill a lil w/ daniel,phillip, jimmy, dae(he is a big perv!), and mr. silent one. yes killed time and got to drink a double dose of green apple green tea...

Posted 2:40 PM by Libby

Oki home now.. I was going to study @ the library but I got hungry so i came home for some jaja mein. I want to find another job to work at... somewhere fun ;P my mum says no but ahh....

I got 40/100 on the stat ap test.... lol... well i beat the odds... I didn't know more than half the test and at the end, i just wrote random letters... hahaha i even put a choice "F" when there's only a,b,c,d.... Remaking it tomorrow, sO wish me luck! I think sadly I need a Stat AP tutor... I've been just chilling in that class... It's not a hard class, but I fell back on it because the teacher is so chill.

Well tonight meeting up Andyj to talk hah... he's a cool guy :) some guidance from a good viewpoint for my dramatic life... i think i just make my own drama don't I? hahhh.... bye

Listening to: Nice and Slow_ Usher

Posted 8:33 PM by Libby

i'm i dunos now... i'm glad i studied for my classes at least.

... i'm just an idiot. hah...

Listen to: A Woman's Worth - Alicia Keys ... listen to the words dork

i'm on A/f special mailing list? i dunno what's so special...other than getting their catalogue... nO not their perv. ones oki... bye

Posted 2:14 PM by Libby

bleh~ i have three tests tomorrow... and feeling bleh times a thousand... snuffly nose too ahh.

going to the pv bibliotecha to mad study w/ milena, julie, and tina i guess :P i hate school a lot ... and many other things...

oki not hate, but dislike a lot... stress ahh

Listening to : Hardball- LiL wayne and others

Posted 8:49 AM by Libby

Right now it'slike 8 40 in the morning and I'm at bathilda's house waiting forher to be ready for school... I feel like bleh :*( slow suffering ahhh... It's rainy outside also... I have like 2 tests tomorrow... I'm going to live at the library today after school.... Ihope the day goes by quickly :***(

Posted 6:17 PM by Libby

today i woke up at like 8 30 to start cleaning my room so my parents would be happy+ i couldn't sleep ... the sun was up and i felt awakeish w/ a lil headache....
Later I picked up yuji from his house then went to carl's jr. then to jeannie's to pick her up theeeennn to rhp to visit... ahaha

me and jeannie chilled at jamba juice then i took her to her work.. i went back to 'photo' class which is basically class inside a shed! and the students in that class are only daniel and jimmy... lol.... hmm jetting through, we end up at gogo juice to have some lady w/ a crappy frontend stuck bcuz her car is whack... dae attempts to use his car to help her but in the end , i call AAA w/ my card and let her car get towed to her house. DO i GET A THANK YOU ? no not really exactly... but o well, i did a good deed... maybe someone else will do something nice in tje future... my mom told me i'm too nice to do that for a stranger so she was a lil annoyed at me...

i take home yuji and pick up jeannie to home, then pick up mum who was 30 minutes late!~ i'm very bleh mode bcuz i have my stuffly nose to deal with plus hW~

Posted 9:44 PM by Libby

DUDE hOme just now...

I went w/ allen, jen, christina, issac, min to 6 flags... FREaKin eh!? bcuz of peer pressure i had to go on all the rollercoasters... it was hell... really it was! I usually sit out for rollercoasters but ahH! i hate rollercoasters... i'm never going to go on another again! deja vu is fucking scary and i was ready to pee in my pants with that stupid thing. I had my fingernail imprints in my hands from being so scared hah... my voice is like totally jacked right now.,, allen bought me a churro, caramel apple yumm.... I got soaked from that rapids ride and it was my whole backside... my jeans were all gross for the majority of the afternoon... O yEah~ Allen won me 2 stuffed animals! One a funny looking pooh bear, then the other is a big scoobydoo... my cheerup toys. then later when we're in the lot, and I go in christina's lexus and we got so fucked over by a car accident! This jeep wrangler had sidehit her car and I was leaning my head on the windowside of the side that got hit! My neck sorta is wack but i'mma get it checked and stuff. When we collided my brain only thought of " another rollercoaster" and it only until christina was like 'fucking shit!!" that i realized that a car hit us. These huge black guys from COMPTON come out spazzing...! Christina looked soo overwhelmed from them and I was trying to call up Allen to come back ... it was bleh! I was telling the black guy to just stay calm and just exchange information and stuff.... damn, these guys didn't have their license and only an ID card, and NO INSURANCE.... they were trying to emphazise how the bought their car w/ cash and blahblahblahblah... they were scary though, but luckily the security, then police, then firetruck, then ambulance came haha... They asked Min all these questions bcuz his leg hurt and stuff, and they asked me if i was okay from the gay stuff too..... gese, it like made the day bad~ Then when the CHP come , they start to question Allen's car because he has tinted front windows, no license plate in front, and illegal hyper lights! but they let allen have a head start or something... so they tell him they'll get him right when he leaves magic mountain parkway.... o yes i must add today, we saw this s500 2 door i think? dropped with dubs haha and that LAkers basketball guy from pv was driving it with his family, and that guy comes parallel w/ us and just does this weird peace sign thin haha... random celebrity i guess.

O yeah it's weird but even though Min can't speak english for jack, i could still like sorta communicate w/ him haha... him speaking korean, me speaking english haha... how strange he ends up staying w/ allen all this time hah..

We ended the night in gardena at this bomb korean bbq; it was soo freaking good .. yum!.. allen was really nice and treated everyone~ soo much!

now home w/ a painbleh neck... byebye

Posted 1:48 AM by Libby

Okay, it's 1 39 am right now....*yawn*

This is my day: Woke up with no voice and called jenn to talk.... then to workworkwork... There, jeannie, milena, and julie visit... lawrence brought his dog which is sOo cute!... Daniel comes later on and stays until i'm off my shift... I follow in my car to his house to get project stuff ... His dad doesn't look like him at all! ....i help him @ starbucks... then meet up everyone else in k-town... later on too messed to drive so amy drives to NRB... which the other guys are mic hogs!!! the songs were sung very nicely by the girls :-D... the guys were a lil too into singing their hearts out hah!.... heh... i follow milena back to the freeway~ then me and daniel end up at gogo to get real drinks before heading to his house...do you realize when you're buzzed, everything really does go at a different speed? hah i was thinking mesmerize was going faster than i thought it was going ... the tapioca shakers too...... i chill @ daniel's house until i meet up others heh... Dude it was majorly awkwardness... ahhh... stuff sucks a lot hah... but I'mma be understanding, time is something that heals everything. ihope hah... when everything is cleared then that time will come... if it never comes, iguess it wasn't ever meant to be ya know.... anywayss Dude his dog hates me... tito the mighty tacobelldog... after I went to starbucks crossroads to chill for a lil bit... dude people do their hw there soo late at night hah... Shanghai Nights is a hilarious movie as i heard hah...

man my voice is like gone. i am in whisper mode again.... hah... seriously though, I'm done with outer smoking ordeals... only the social stuff... i'm learning my lesson w/ my voice gone every morning and night... and plus i don't wanna be like that wrinkly woman i saw that one day who was smoking...she looked pretty crappy doodle to me hah!

5 days till valentines :( aloneness AhH... especially on that DAY~ gosh... it can't be helped to not mention that day...arg sorry hah
good night! saturday was way cool :) i hope for some more good days :-D

Posted 12:02 AM by Libby

I went out and chilled w. jamesK today... then we went to allen's house... then Allen danny and minwoo and i went to tapioca to meet up daniel, yuji, jimmy, phillip... wastedddd loottss of time,... then wasted some more time at gogo....then allen ditched me :P... then daniel,me,jimmy,yuji,phillip,christine, brian went to ucla to get sandy and her dude to eat at a Thai resturaunt in westwood..... then chill time in lot,... then went to marina del ray to chill at starbucks.... then yuji drove himself home, then i drove my self home all w/ daniel's car... the end... o yes daniel is gettin very ill. i have an annoying cough... jeannie is also sicktoo... i think the flu is going round!

Posted 2:36 PM by Libby

I got some chucks...black canvas today. :) my short happinesses...

helen and i went to rhp after school to have a short visit hah...

TOday Is the LaSt day of smoking :) no more lighters... Way big cut back... I realize it's really wack for me... i lost my voice this morning ...weirdness hah...

arg... lonliness arg.bites.and bites again...it's not fair ahh....noone trusts ah

anyways... i think my brother is seeing that chick... ahhhhhh!


do i really look like a panda?!

Posted 9:38 PM by Libby

eating rice and kimchee hah.. i 'm hungry again... i'm a lil piggy :P DuDe I want to gain weight, but not get a belly hah...

I just got back from gogo w/ jeannie , daniel. we just chilled... helen and jessica came and joined the group... ahhh days seem so chill :)

I later also took my lil bro to PV bowl.heh


I think if things can't be the way I want, I'll just be humble... god gives me a lot of good things in life, and maybe the wants I want aren't really my needs... arg but loneliness sucks... maybe i'm not really alone in that sense but i just don't see it XP

Smoking is going to cut down bigtime...i feel very bad for not sticking to the pack a week thing... today i threw away my pack, hah... I hope i have more motivation to stop... it's seriously bleh. BuBBLEGUM TIME

Posted 3:44 PM by Libby

dude last night i was talking to daniel about wisdom teeth... i'm scared to get my teeth pulled ahHhh.... blood ... ugh

I am back at school today hah... gosh i made friends with the new chick. She's a halfy like me: japanese and chinese... she's cute and taller too! .. yay i'm not the only mix... I duno what happened but she didn't meet me up wherevers... o well.

i was pretty messed earlier. hah...allen dork... i ate too much food and i felt like throwing up... udon, rice, porkchop, vegetables... too much bleh XP ...

lil nap now i think

Posted 10:01 PM by Libby

okay i stayed home, but i felt like i was going crzy staying home so long...ahh school is blah! I made DavidL come out to chill... hah.. I went to pick him up... jenn and wayne were at gogo...daniel and his friend ji came... they left a lil while later..... later milena and amy came to 'study' at gogo haha.... we left to david's house(me, jenn, wayne) we met his older bro. he's very cool. we watched jen and wayne play games, then we ate pizza at his house. yumyum.... ahhh home now... bleh.

Posted 1:14 PM by Libby

I want security and I think that is why I am so impatient. I already had learned in psych those who are able to be patient are those who are able to suffice in the longrun. It's like putting skittle in front of me and saying " elizabeth, don't eat the skittles for an hour"... adn then the person just leaving... I guess I'm bad at the tempting part. but i guess this is also a good time for me also because I'm able to learn also... because I'm not thinking about how others do not understand me. i hope those may be able to see my sincerity... yeah I'm really random and weird at times ..bleh..

O yes I'm blogging because I didn't go to school today. I was too tired and pooped out hah. i think knowing colleges (purdue/unov of illinois urbabn champange
) accepted me , cause me to lag a lot. My mom says she doesn't want me going to purdue just now... she's home making me lunch but anyways... she thinks she'd rather me go to SB than Purdue bcuz of whatever she's thinking.... whatevers... i'll wait till all my colleges respond then i'll put my factors to choose which school. suCks i'm not able to use that FaFsa thing... I'm like so out of that earning bracket and I want FREE money from the government... :-\ ... Well I'm going to take a shower bcuz I played with cocoa, and he made me feel icky. bye

Posted 8:40 PM by Libby

i'm a lil erked right now... do i need to be? not really but iono... gosh i wish i wasn't like this... i think it's being insecure... :( will i just lose out becuase of what i worry soo much about in the future? i need help ahh ~ plus this random chick in spanish saying I can do better, pissed me off.... the way she said it is supposed to make me sound great, but it was offending... am i just being weird?!i feel like hurting that chick at the second hah.....

i need comforting ahh... seriously~ahh... bleh

today: went to school. went to lunch w/ joy at shabushabu. work. daniel came to visit. jenny came. met jay? and "dean" lol. i got to drive daniel's car home ... greeatttttt... bye

o yes i felt bad going further than the pack a week thing... I'm going to throw away 2 things later this week.

Posted 6:56 PM by Libby

wanna see the few pix i have for formal?(more to be added later) here they are:

Posted 12:46 AM by Libby

okay, it's freaking almost 1 am! I am such a dumbass... In government on friday( i didn't go to school) there was a paper due Monday on something wrong in america... and so I had to BS a paper about Child Poverty. Bathilda said it's pretty good for doing in such short time....

I'm going to be soo tired tomorow at school AHH!> and i have my psych test too...

thinking* ...... and happy

Listening: John Mayer- Love Song for Noone

This week: no more smoking since my pack is done already...be happy... less worrying... study for spanish class... sleep more.

Posted 5:07 PM by Libby

okii.... As below,, i was talking about HUBertYOo... daym... people complaining for bs... anywayss

He called to clearwhatever nonsense boys wanna bicker about between him and daniel. very nice of him acutally :P i'm hungry again and there's only udon in my house today... i feel like partying again XP ahhh senioritis

Posted 12:26 PM by Libby

i am like the biggest idiot in the world... it's pissing me off ugh...so dumb

Posted 11:05 AM by Libby

Formal was funfun! I went to get hair and makeup done at like 9 30-1ish... Daniel and I chilled at Gogo earlier... Sam came and chitchatted then we were on our way to formal pictures... we were like the first people to take pictures... everyone came , then we picked up stuff frm brian :P .... it ended up being bleh but it's all good.

We got to the resturaunt and ate ... then to the dance... :) Daniel is able to dance which is +. My feet killed me so much. I was so happy to change into regular clothe. :P Then off to Obi w/ everyone,,, it was mucho fun... I haven't chilled like that in a while. Then to starbucks, blahblahblah... hubert yoo can suck it. i"m sorry tina but your man is bleh.

FORmal was funfun!